Christmas Freight Train!

I swear christmas is rushing toward me like a freight train!
So much to do, so little time, and funny enough - no motivation!
Maybe because i feel drained this week. Last week is catching up to me mentally and its that tiempo del mes so i'm just burnt!
Still need to shop and do some house cleaning this weekend.
I finally made an appt to get lasered again on Saturday.
Hopefully i'll be shopping tomorrow and i can get it ALL done in one day. Not much to pick up since most of my gifts are handmade this year.
Somehow i walk into a mall and even with list in hand i go blank.
So this year, I made my list AND put ideas next to it.
I also have a strict budget and i'm NOT going to go over.
I still need to get all my christmas cookies baked and i have to make pastelles!
Bring it.

Don't like the airport scene.

It is rainy and grey outside
Rainy and grey inside.
I need to let go.
I had a client and his cohort speak to me in an unacceptable way earlier.
I was livid and wanted to tell them both where to go.
I kept my cool and answered calmly.
I want to tell him that his bullying was completely unnecessary especially since he is in a position where he owes me money.
I am tempted to pack it in and not deliver on his project. But we are too far along and i deserve the payment for work done.
I am going to upload the project and wait for payment.
If none is received i'm going to raise HELL.
I long for the day when this blog can be about crafts and yummy projects. House decorations and scrapbooking.
No client BS to be spouted about . I am over this part of my career.
I can go back in my archives and find a zillion posts where i've said this , only to say yes to another project because i needed the work and the money.
There are other ways, earning a living does not have to feel wrong everyday or hurt this bad.
I know i can do it, earn 'enough' without having to sacrifice me.
I just need to let go of this, close this door so i can go open some more.

Christmas is coming!!!!!!!!!!

I am getting excited!!
I LOVE christmas!
Yes, my birthday is superclose to the holidays so that's a PART of it.
But i get so happy and so excited by it all.
Some of my best childhood memories are centered around christmas.
I love everything about a trini christmas.
First off, just hearing Parang makes me giddy happy.
Drinking Sorrel flavoured shandy...eep! I can get this all year round but never drink it other than at christmas time.
Forget about regular sorrel...lawwd! D yumminess!
I hate cleaning the sorrel because i once found a dead scorpion in one...yea...
Pastelles!! Last year was my first time making these and they turned out GREAT! Hope i can remember how to do them this year!
Last year two of my friends and i got together to make christmas cookies. Fun new tradition.
Very messy but yummy and fun. I have ideas in my head this time to make it go smoother...perhaps less alcohol consumption while baking!
The christmas shopping is also fun..but its not the present buying. I wish we could nix presents save for lovely handmade items ...but the mall atmosphere!
The decorations and music. Love that part of it. LOVE.
I am excited!
I can't wait!
What are some of your fave fun traditions?

For got that the turtle tagged me.

So here goes 7 random facts about me . I'm not tagging anyone but please play along if u want to and lemme know in the comments so i can go read!:D

1. when i get stressed i count. I count anything and nothing. Reciting numbers calms me which is weird cuz i'm so not a numbers person.

2. I love to mix cereal. I hate having one kind only.

3. Taking pics and doing makeup makes me happy. Making jewelry recently joined this happy list :D

4. I'm not sure what i want to be when i grow up. Or if i WANT to grow up.

5. My jeans are two or three sizes too big. But boy are they comfy.

6. I love long deep conversations, but sometimes i need to just take things at face value in order to stay sane

7. Nailpolish on my toes makes me really happy. I've never not been without polish on my toes for as far back as i could remember because we weren't allowed to wear fingernail polish in school. My rebellion was to wear it on my toes, hidden by my socks. I tried going without for a month and a half recently. Painting them hot pink a few days ago restored my happiness.

Dog days of..........autumn?

Projects completed: 2
Payments received: 0

i am putting good vibes out there.
I am being paid before the week is over.

Everything,Something and Nothing.

That was the message that came to me and stayed with me as i walked the labyrinth yesterday evening.
Everything,
Something and
Nothing.
I walked with the intention of getting some sort of clarity or enlightenment on my 'mystery pain'
My friend E and i sat discussing the message for a bit thinking of possible meanings.
Everything meaning that i'd done everything already?
Something meaning that it IS something?
Nothing meaning that maybe its not physical?
I also felt that the message extended more to other things and not just my physical pain.
Something to think about.
After our lab walk we went in search of gelato and bubbles.
E had a giant gelato that looked SO amazing.
I'm trying to be wheat free (i'm already dairy free) so i had a sad looking soy gelato in a pathetic little styrofoam cup.
While slowly eating it i thought to myself man..i'm eating my wheat free dairy free VERY sugar filled treat but i'm going to be adding a piece of styrofoam to a landfill. pshhht. yuh cahhhh win!
We then went to the toy store to buy bottles of bubbles and spent some time getting lost amongst the wonderful, whimsical and fairly decently priced toys. E bought herself a LOVELY pink floral lei as she is suddenly attracted to any and everything pink.
I couldn't help but feel tickled that i've pulled someone else over to the pink side! Score!

oops!!!

My friend thinks she accidentally flagged my blog for objectionable content
I guess i was overdoing it with the flower pics huh. Too many lillies!
Lol
ok so if u see a warning don't freak there are definitely no boobies or other nekkid parts, but we all know there may be a cuss word or two!
Thanks!!

Obamamama!

He WON!
I am soooooo thrilled with the outcome of the election!
He has a heck of a lot of cleaning up to do and its going to take a lot of time so here's to PRESIDENT OBAMA!:)

I'm feeling hopeful about my health situation.
Lots more changes and more new habits to develop
But i'm hopeful about it.

Work is going alright. Being paid would be nice. I've got a client who has suddenly become ill and not taking phone calls. It is amazing how well he was during the project.
I'm not handing over till he pays up so he can bend over and kiss my perky brown ass.

Onto my day.